I am seeking attention when all attentions are mine.
How childish! Sorry. I should have known better but I didn't.
Sorry. Yun lang. Sorry.

   oh men, i quit MI. panu nmn kasi kala ko wala ng nangyayari. I want to dance, but no one shows interest. That SUCKS! hmm, I'm gonna miss it! Oooh, before I forget, (but that's impossoble), I enjoyed our night out! We went to a comedy bar, SAMURAI. haha, it was alright. But, the happiest and the most exciting part we did during the night was at Alberto's. Loads and loads of fun! It was my first time to try going to a bar! Well, I want to do it again! Really really!
  LOIS, yeah, um, well, right now, we're okay. Though he's kinda annoying, haha. He's trying to make me say things I can't say! Like , hmm, you know, mushy stuffs. haha, But, I find it cute. He makes me smile, wonder how he does that knowing I am, and should be mad. But, i guess I forgot all about it. Mama , too is starting to annoy me, she keeps on pushing me to him, (Ma, you don't need to coz =]) anyway, my mom and his mom are in touch, with us, and everything, everything, and when I say everything, EVE-RY THANG. I mean, if we can get married, they would schedule it right away! But, that's just annoying. hahah. Not that I don't like or anything but, maybe am just not used to it. You know, I'm new here! haha. Well, gotta go, am doing an OS Research. Wish me all the luck in the world.
 

            I went to SM today, it's not that it's a big deal though it is, for cryin out loud! i went alone. I didn't know why but i just did. And guess what, i need to do this more often, spend time with me. yes, just the two of us. Currently, i am listening to The Scripts, you know them? I don't. They have this new song, the man who can't be moved which is currently my favorite song, well maybe just this week. You know me.

           So, i went to SM to , i don't know, haven't accomplished anything. Oooh, except for that Penshoppe flip flops. You know i like flip flops. =] i bought one, it's gray. Wow, i just realized it matches my contact lenses. Though, no one might notice. Well, when i was on my way home, i rode Aurora Hill, and it freaked me out when all of the people riding the jeepey were all boys. There's these two boys, talking about basketball , a man who is on his 20s , i think. It shows! Hmm, who else? the driver is a boy too, then a fat one who obviously just took his shower. I wonder where he's going? Anyway, I'll stop here.

I've worked on that project for years. My teacher said i can pass it whenever I'm done with it, so there i was just trying to make things neat , whole , nice, etc. I wanted to make it PERFECT so when the time comes I can pass it proudly. I tried new things, i experimented, i measured, analyzed, I did a lot of research, i took chances, i dreamed big, i went through several challenges. I was really enthusiastic about finishing and passing it whenever I can. Then one day, i felt the satisfaction. I felt the need of passing the project already, so I worked on it and added finishing touches! I said to myself, "Today is the day and I love it! " Okay, there I went expecting an A+, i handed down my project with a smile but to my shock, he marked it D- , disappointed , i asked why, he said, "Late projects won't be accepted. I am sorry."
LIFE.

 i DON'T know you anymore. remember when you used to stick with me , NO MATTER HOW AWFUL my mood is? But i guess, people do change, i wanted space, but not this HUGE space! it's ridiculous. i want to be alone some days, but i don't want to be spoiled! you guys spoil me too much, maybe that's one of the few reasons why i act a JERK.
 things happen and i have NO control over them. akala ko, you'll be with me since you know me VERY WELL, but i guess not.  you don't know me at all. another thing that bothers me is him! do you know how he's been treating me? siguro hndi, since you like him so much. what is up with that? im DYING to make his life miserable yet you make it so convenient for him to hurt me, even if he doesn't do anything. you guys. siguro sa inyo it might NOT be a big deal at all! AND THAT'S MY WHOLE POINT! kala ko no matter how silly, no matter how stupid, no matter how small, dito tayo.  pero, gosh! mali , hehe. mali tlga. how would you feel if i hang out with this person evryday fuckin day of my life and considering you hate that person so much, SOOO MUCH! and take note, you're not the only one who hates that person, THAT PERSON HATES YOU TOO! and yet, and YET! i hang out with that person. how would you feel? anung meron?yeah yeah, keep repeating, 'para un lang' , i don't care. but i do care about me. so, yeah. whatever. you'll never get it, freaks.